Killing Eve book 3: Die for Me
“Yesterday,” I whisper. “You were ready to die for me?”
“Go to sleep, pupsik.”
I picked this book up from the library on Friday. I went straight home, sat on my back porch, and read the whole thing in one go. And wow, what an experience.
What matters is that when Villanelle asked me to come with her, to walk out of my life and leave behind everything and everyone I’d ever known, I did so without hesitation.
I still haven’t watched the final season of Killing Eve. I binged the first three seasons in 2021, and I decided I’d read all the books before the last season came out. I ended up taking longer to get through the books than I expected, so I’m going to have to watch season 4 pretty soon. I haven’t heard the best things about it, so I picked up this book here expecting a disappointing conclusion.
And… um, wow. I don’t think I expected any of this?
“Hey. We’re alive. We got away.”
“For now.”
“Now’s all there is, pupsik.” She pressed my palm to her icy cheek. “Now’s all there ever is.”
Again, I haven’t seen season 4 yet but – I’ll say this – I think this book is my favorite exploration of Villanelle and Eve that I’ve seen, including all the books and previous TV seasons. I like the show, don’t get me wrong, but I think I enjoyed reading Die for Me more.
“Oh my God. I’d sell my soul for a pistachio macaroon right now.”
“Too late.”
“What do you mean?”
“Your soul’s mine now. It’s not for sale. You have to starve.”
I liked how this book shifted into a first-person perspective from Eve, giving a starkly personal POV. Her and Villanelle’s relationship was so intense, dramatic, and wildly compelling. I was drinking in every word. And that ending…
I’m not the person I was. The events of the last week have shown me the shadow self I’ve always denied, and forced me to hear the backbeat I’ve always pretended wasn’t there. All my certainties have evaporated. Villanelle has deleted them.
Well, I really can’t say anything without major spoilers, so let’s go.
I’ll make her feel my love, even if it kills me.
*spoilers here*
THIS BOOK GOT ME. I really thought Oxana was fully dead, totally accepted it, and grieved alongside Eve. And then… that twist!! The emotions this book put me through! And Eve and Oxana ACTUALLY getting their happy ending together, yes yes yes!!
“How did you know? I mean, I was married, I had a husband, I’d never so much as looked at a woman…”
“You looked at me. And I looked back.”
“And what did you see?”
“You, pchelka.”
What a ride. I love when I feel neutral about a series in the midst of it and then get blown away by the finale.
5/5 stars just for that.
Read on April 29, 2024
